Out of today’s reading, I would like to focus on
my favorite of all the Psalms, number 139.
Notice first, that David addresses God with his personal name. In our English
translation, it is “Lord,” but in the Hebrew, it is YHWH. David knows God
personally and is known by him personally: "you have searched me and known me."
What does YHWH know about David? He knows his
movements and even his thoughts. The Lord searches out David’s path and even
knows where he will lie down at the end of the day. During the years of David’s
hiding out from Saul, the place of his lying down each night was a thing
uncertain to David, but not to YHWH. The Lord is, indeed, acquainted with all of
David’s ways. He knows the words that David is going to speak before he utters
them. The Lord is both ahead of David, and behind him, and he lays his hand on
David’s head. David expresses awe at God’s omniscience: “Such knowledge is too
wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it.” Such knowledge would
be oppressive were it not for the fact that this God who knows David is also
the God whose “steadfast love endures forever” (Psalm 136). Thus, I take it
that God lays his hand of blessing on
David’s head.
David proceeds to ask: “Where can I go from your
spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence?” The answer of course is:
“nowhere”. YHWH is not only omniscient, he is omnipresent. If David ascends to
heaven (presumably the sky, or perhaps even outer space), YHWH is there. If
David descends to the place of the dead, the Lord is there too. YHWH is at the
end of the farthest sea. Even there his hand will guide David, and God’s right
hand, the hand of blessing, will hold David secure. Darkness has always been a
fearful thing to human beings. Yet, darkness and light are the same to YHWH.
Both are equally parts of his creation. (Here I would recommend reading Barbara
Brown Taylor’s excellent book Learning to
Walk in the Dark.)
Not only is YHWH the creator of light and dark,
he is the creator of David. “For it was you who formed my inward parts; you
knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and
wonderfully made.” Here there is nothing about David being conceived in sin (Psalm
51:5). There is the sense that God’s creation is entirely good, and not only
good, but wonderful, intricate, a work of art.
Furthermore, YHWH is not only David’s creator,
but in his providence, he knows all of David’s life before it even happens. It
is the Lord’s thoughts that hold David’s life together. YHWH’s thoughts have
weight. Their sum is vast, uncountable. The fact that YHWH always holds David
in his thoughts means that David is always with him.
In the midst of this psalm that is so filled with
goodness, verses 19 through 22 are rather startling….
O that you would kill the wicked, O God,
And that the bloodthirsty would depart from me—
Those who speak of you maliciously,
And lift themselves up against you for evil!
Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against
you?
I hate them with perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.
Why suddenly this focus on the wicked, on God’s
enemies? I think the answer is that David was surrounded by enemies almost
throughout his entire life. Therefore, it is natural for David to always have
his enemies in the back of his mind. Perhaps David composed this psalm to get
his mind off his enemies and focused on YHWH. However, David has not been
completely successful. Those anxious thoughts have crept back in.
Have we not all experienced something like this?
We sit down, or kneel down, to pray and suddenly our minds wander. What are we
to do? What can we do with wandering thoughts? We can make those very thoughts
the subject of our prayer, even when those thoughts are evil. We lay our whole
self before God, not the self we would like to be, not the perfect self, but
the self that is, with all its hang-ups, quirks, and sins. Then we simply let
God deal with us.
David ends this mostly beautiful psalm in that
very spirit:
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Test me and know my thoughts.
See if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.
David asks God to test the very thoughts he has
been expressing. The implication of his prayer is that if there is anything
wicked in what he is saying that the Lord would cleanse it, and lead him in the
way that has a future, the way everlasting.
Of course, this was not simply David’s prayer. If
it was a prayer peculiar to him, then it never would have been included in the
psalms. Jews and Christians have prayed this prayer over the millennia. When we
take this prayer upon our lips, we are personally addressing the God who knows
us personally:
The creator who has formed us as a work of art,
The omniscient one who knows everything about us
and loves us anyway,
The omnipresent one from whom we can never
escape,
The heavenly father who lays his hand of blessing
upon our heads,
The protector who guards us from all evil,
The redeemer who forgives our sins and cleanses
us from them,
YHWH who leads us in the way everlasting.
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